Those of you who read the holy words of Miztress Sophie on Her blog will already have seen that i have already been using the Elastrator under her guidance. i will admit to a degree of frustration in my early attempts as i struggled to use the device for its intended purpose but, with a little bit of help from fellow users of the Eunuch Archive (worth a visit for those of you interested in the topic of castration http://www.eunuch.org/ ), and after finding some instructional notes and videos i have made some progress. So far this has been restricted to banding one testicle, the right one, on two occasions.
The sense of excitement the first time i got the testicle through the Elastrator band was truly wonderful. i sat there with the band closed behind the testicle but still on the device. Next time i actually rolled the band off the device and, for the first time, was properly banded. Surprisingly this was not too painful, albeit i managed to nick my scrotum so there was a little blood. The band was on for only a few minutes as i worked out the best way to remove it, not as easy as you think given how tight it is, i eventually found a technique using a dinner knife and toe nail scissors which did the job.
This experiment was not done with Miztress Sophie watching as i was keen to get the technique right before i showed Her as previous failures had, understandably, frustrated Her. So this week, for the first time i was able to band myself in Her presence. The sense of excitement i felt as i pulled the testicle through the band and rolled the band off the Elastrator was truly awe inspiring. i was at last able to demonstrate to Her that i could fulfil my destiny and, as She took photos of my trial run, i felt the certain expectation of my eventual emasculation.
So, what was it like? Well, as the band goes on it is not too bad, less painful than i expected in fact. However, within a few minutes of putting it on, the pain grew as the constricted area grew more and more sore. i noticed also a growing ache in the banded testicle and my stomach the longer i was banded. Miztress Sophie encouraged me to deal with the pain and prove my courage to Her. i lasted about 20 minutes before She released me, but i clearly need to go much longer when the time comes. As for taking the band off, this was done easily with the toenail scissors, but was extremely painful. To get the idea of how painful it was, try placing pegs on your nipples for over half an hour, then pull them off. Multiply that pain ten fold and you will get some idea of just how much it hurt. Clearly, the longer i leave the bands on whilst practising, the more painful it will be once they are removed. On the plus side, at the chosen time, i won’t have to worry about removing them.
As for the banded ball itself, it quickly went purple, then black and got cold. Others have said that, whilst it might take a few hours for the testicles to die completely, banding for as little as 1 hour can do irreparable damage as can regular, shorter bandings. Given my experience so far i can see why this is the case.
So, what next? More practice seems the best way forward. Banding both testicles and for longer periods so i can understand and cope with the pain and other changes. With continued practice i hope to be able to offer Miztress my ultimate sacrifice before the year is out. She is already dreaming of holding my severed testicles in Her beautiful hand and i don’t want to keep Her waiting too long.
Finally, thanks to all who have read this blog and, particularly those who have posted comments. These are much appreciated, even those that raise objections or suggest i consider alternative strategies. Rest assured i continue to think very hard about what i am doing, seeking advice and testing my own convictions. i remain convinced this is the right thing to do, but not without thinking very carefully about the consequences.